I'm An Idiot.

these days that we let slip by
mean nothing to our lives 
yet our dreams will bring us close 
as our eyes shut, our minds wander
these sweet and wonderful realms of reality we enter
still show some from our reality
i see you
i hear you
i feel you
under my fingers
my eyes
my nose
i always wonder if we’re dreaming together
as one
or if i fall into yours 
or you do mine
my presence felt softly on your hips
your hair falls onto my face
i can smell your neck
the feel of your warm body soothes my troubled mind
as i close my eyes in reality, i only dream of you
i will hold you til i can not
kiss you until i have no lips to do so anymore
and touch you until my hands are taken away
you’re more than a mere person in my life
you’re the one who could change me
who could keep me
who could take care of me
and I of you
as long as i have you, the world doesn’t seem so bad
as long as i have you, i know love
as long as i have you, i will never sleep alone
and as we dream together
our lives mix
our love intertwines
and our hearts fly for one another
in reality and in dreams we will be
together

~Mac~

I have stood along this road

looked a long and have seen many come and go

these days preasured me to remain

motionless with no real name

the snow has fallen on to my head

and the sun has made that snow shed

these eyes that intently watch me

i have craved for that significantly

eyes that will eventually know my story

my days will continue forever surly

but one day the eyes that i will want will some day stop

and judge me not

for the message written below my feet

but for the message that i mean

she will be a woman

eagerly wanting to know even though she shouldnt

she will stand in front of my body

and wait for me to answer intently i am so jealous that i can never answer back

she will be ready to claim this fact

how can she do this and not help me

does she know who i could be

that she can stare at me and never think twice

she can move while i am stuck in this vice

i love her

but i never truly will

because i am stone and will be here forever

she will walk away

while i beg her to stay

but she will never hear my voice

i hate that that is not my choice

she can walk away

wile i watch with everything to say

i would kill to see her look back again

so i can see her face once more, so intent

she doesnt know how she makes me feel

will she take advantage of my heart to steal

i pray for her to come by once a day

if i could what would i say

until then i will stand here motionless

but not emotionless

because i love her

and she will never know that fact for sure

~Mac~

Time slows

bodies numb

funny thoughts

amazing sights

invincibility thoughts

mind spills

smells like

but not 

enough to

get caught

the escape

from my 

fucked world

and fucked 

up life

me and

my friends

all emotions

at those

“joint sessions”

comes out 

the gossip

and problems

all while 

we’re all

high all

by ourselves

but still

we escape

as one

~Mac~

Watch clouds overhead

as they pass the sun

and smile towards earth

rise above all doubt

as the tenssion grows

slowly partake in life

but watch your soul

sleep aimlessly

lay in grass of green

and sleep in seas of blue

watch dreams sleep days away

believe in shadows as they

creep past your face

and smile at your demons

pray on pillars of sand

as your days become

endless

~Mac~

Call him in

he expresses as the tears start

to hurt his face

he picks up the phone

and from under the heavy irons

expressions in pain

as the world is crashing

the crown around him

watching as no ones

tears fall for him

he expresses the hate

how could it be like this

as loved ones rush around him

tell him bye 

and say its time

full steam ahead

and his head falls back

the worst sight

but no more heavy irons

never to return

but to everyone else

it’s still 3rd street station

~Mac~